By Your Side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

Wow, do you ever find a song that totally relates to what you are going through? Tonight, this song is everything I feel and it just hit me as I sat on my bed and just cried out to God. Why is it that sometimes we need to be told something like a thousand times before we go, "oh, I get it!" When everything seems to be going so wrong God is still there loving me, He is always by my side. I have heard this song so many times before but tonight it took on a whole new meaning for me. I need to stop looking for other people to love me and just look to God because He does love me and will never let me go! In a way I have insulted God, (it was really hard to admit this and harder yet to type it!) I have said in my heart God you are not enough and I need more, more than You...wow that must have hurt God a lot. God's love is ALL I need, it is more than enough and way more than I deserve!

 I'm not sure what God is going to do with life and where I will end up but I do know that God's love will get me through anything and everything. So God, I am sorry for looking for love in all the wrong places and I give you all of me. I know You won't relent until You have it all, so I'm giving it all to You.