By Your Side

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

Wow, do you ever find a song that totally relates to what you are going through? Tonight, this song is everything I feel and it just hit me as I sat on my bed and just cried out to God. Why is it that sometimes we need to be told something like a thousand times before we go, "oh, I get it!" When everything seems to be going so wrong God is still there loving me, He is always by my side. I have heard this song so many times before but tonight it took on a whole new meaning for me. I need to stop looking for other people to love me and just look to God because He does love me and will never let me go! In a way I have insulted God, (it was really hard to admit this and harder yet to type it!) I have said in my heart God you are not enough and I need more, more than You...wow that must have hurt God a lot. God's love is ALL I need, it is more than enough and way more than I deserve!

 I'm not sure what God is going to do with life and where I will end up but I do know that God's love will get me through anything and everything. So God, I am sorry for looking for love in all the wrong places and I give you all of me. I know You won't relent until You have it all, so I'm giving it all to You.

Walking with God

I was reflecting on my walk with God today and realized something, I don't always walk with Him. Actually most of the time I am either running ahead of Him or lagging behind. Sometimes I leap into something because I think it is what He has for me and I don't even think to pray and ask if this is right. I just run ahead and than I am frustrated because I feel lost because I tried to get ahead and go the way I though was right. Other times I lag behind, I know what He wants me to do and I don't want to do it due to fear, selfishness, pride, and the list could go on and on.

For the first time this summer I have really felt the peace of God, the peace that you know comes from Him because there is no way you could manufacture this peace by yourself. It is so amazing, there are no words to describe how good it is to know that you are walking side by side with the Creator of the universe! That He cares enough to take my hand and lead me through life. That if I fall, He is there to pick me up and set me on my feet again.

I know that God has led me to the place where I live and work and I am so excited to see how He will use it for His glory because right now that is all that I want. He has done so much for me and will continue to do many more amazing things in my life that I just want to do something for Him. I want to serve Him everyday. I know I can never "pay Him back" for all He has done for me but I desire more than ever to serve Him and use my life to give Him glory and praise.

"Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you peace at all times and in every way." 2 Thessalonians 3:16

Valerie Young RN BSN

That's right! I am officially a Registered Nurse! I passed the NCLEX, no more studying endless hours and worrying about taking the test, it is all over and I can breathe once again! I have been training at my new job this past week and now have a 3 day weekend! Wednesday I went to lifest and saw some great bands and hung out with some great friends! Friday I had lunch with Liz and Alexa. We talked about starting a women's bible study which really excited me! I miss going to Bible study! Tomorrow I am going to lifest again and than seeing some old friends.

Waiting

Well I took the NCLEX today.... I had 75 questions which is the least amount that you can get, 265 is the most. I have no idea how I did, I pray that I passed.I will get my official results in one month but in a few days I will have my unofficial results....The wait is on,,,,,,,

Yesterday I went with my friend Maria to stay at my friend Leah's house. It was so good to see both of these women, they are so devoted to God, it makes them so beautiful! I am so blessed to have such great friends. Today after the test I got to have dinner with two more special lady's; Jacque and Heather. It was such a blessing to see all four women in 2 days!