Do you ever feel second best? Like your not good enough for people? No matter how much you try and try and try, it doesn't matter you simply fall short and aren't good enough. Do you ever feel like you are only good enough when you are with some one more "popular" ? When you are not with certain people than other people don't find you good enough to even talk to. Do you ever just wish that someone would notice you and
just you?
I know that God loves me and cares for me. I also know that I have family and friends who love and care about me. So why does it matter so much that some people don't like me? Or that I don't have as many friends as I would like? As a child of God, I should be concerned with only one thing, and that one thing is God! He has the only opinion that should matter,
right? So than why is it so hard when I see people around me flourishing and having tons of friends? I should be happy for them,
right? I hate the flesh, why do I let it get to me? Sometimes I think we give in to our emotions and get too carried away with them. I'm trying not to let the opinions of this world get to me.....but it's not as
easy as it sounds.
Again, I know that God has a plan for my life and whatever it is will be better than I could ever dream of. But how long do I have to wait? When will something
amazing happen to me? (I'm starting to sound selfish again). Lately in my prayer life I have been throwing a lot of
why questions at God, most of the time I don't even wait for Him to respond.....But he
wants to. He
longs to. I am His daughter, I need to listen to and respect my Father. Last night my prayer time went a little differently....instead of hurling a bunch of
why questions at God, I thanked Him for what He has given me so far and just cried out to my Father who is always listening. And I listened for
His response. Lets just say, I did a lot of apologizing and am allowing God to work on my broken heart. I know He never said it would be easy, but He did say I would never have to go
alone.
