I apologize for my absence, to say life has been crazy it to put it simply! The last time I posted it was for my birthday which was almost a month ago! Hard to believe how fast the time was gone! 5 days before Christmas I got really, really sick! I had a horrible flu and went 3 days with out eating anything because it was just that miserable! Thankfully I recovered just in time to enjoy the wonderful foods that accompany Christmas!
This was definitely a different Christmas, it couldn't have been over fast enough for me! I'm not going to lie or hold back, this Christmas was not very good to me. To begin with my mom got engaged the day before Christmas Eve. Ugh, it is so hard to see this spelled out in words but I know it will help. I don't like my mom's fiance, when she started dating him she gave up her faith and changed into a different person. This made me really sad and when I made my mother aware of my feelings she just shrugged them off and became angry at me. That really hurt. I'm still trying to deal with that and that happened 5 years ago! I was really hurt and it did damage to my relationship with my mother who I had always looked up to until that point.
On Christmas Eve I spent the day with my dad and his family, just like every year. Within 15 minutes of being at my dad's house he and his wife (who I also don't really like, again still working on this!) were arguing and I mean REALLY arguing, swearing and the whole shebang! I didn't know how to intervene so I just simply looked at them and said "Merry Christmas everyone!" That stopped them for about 2 seconds.
This is only the beginning, the rest I don't want to share yet. I'm asking you my friends and fellow bloggers to please, please pray for me and my family as things have not been easy. It is truly a challenge to be the only believer in your entire family! I have really been struggling a lot lately and would appreciate any prayers! Maybe at a later date I will share more of my struggles but for now this is all I can do.
My "blogging goal" for 2012 is to obviously post more often and secondly to be completely real with all of you. I hope your 2012 is starting out grand, I am expecting great things from this new year! I did have a wonderful New Years which I will share about in my next post!
