Sunday, June 27, 2010

Moving & Change once again!

I moved once again today but now it was to my apartment because I got a job as a RN!!!! I will have the apartment all to myself for a month and a half until my other 3 roommate arrive. I am excited to live with them but for now I will enjoy the alone time.....although I need people to interact with frequently!! So we will see how that goes! I start orientation tomorrow at the Rehab Center where I will be working. God has blessed me with finding a job that is less than 10 minutes away from my apartment! I am so excited to begin my nursing career, all I have left to do is pass the BIG test, which is the most important part! I take my test on Thursday, I have been studying hard and praying so I hope I pass on the first try!

As for moving......Let's just say my room is full of boxes and bags that need to be unpacked!!

Monday, June 14, 2010

Good news and Bad news

Well I guess I will start out with the bad news so I can end on a good note. Last friday at work I was informed that due to the slow economy and a lot of our shipments being held up in China that all college help would be cut from 40 hours to 32 hours, this means instead of working mon-fri, I only work tues-fri. Most of the college help was excited to have a day off but not me....I need to work because I need to pay back student loans!!!

The good news is I got a call today from a Rehab center asking me if I wanted to interview for a RN postion. I would most likely work the PM shift. I am so excited....I've applied to just under 100 jobs and finally something! I am so looking foward to tuesday so please pray for my interview that if this is God's will for me that I would get the job! See I told you the good news would be good!!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Your Everything by Lifehouse

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? Cause You're all I want, You're all I need, You're everything, everthing


Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this

Monday, June 7, 2010

Love

Love.....why is it that it is just so easy to love some people and others it seems nearly impossible? Love can be so complicated yet so simple. I don't know if I will ever fully grasp the concept of love. I know we are called by God to love everyone, even those who hurt us (we are called to love our enemies).

My concept of love has been messed up most of my life, I always thought it was something that you had to work towards, something that could be earned. But real love, true love can not be earned.

I grew up in a broken family, I have hardly any memories of my family being happy and lovey dovey like TV shows make family's appear. My parents were always fighting, and when they weren't fighting it was because they weren't talking. My parents divorced when I was in 4th grade, so my parents have been split up for most of my life. When parents get divorced, the children are forced to grow up fast because both parents are now working and you and your siblings have to take care of each other. My dad remarried when I was 16 and my mom has had a serious relationship with a guy since a I was 19. 

My family is not the kind of family that says "I love you." In fact I don't remember the last time I said "I love you" to anyone in my family or they said it to me. I am sure that we all love each other, I guess we just don't have a normal expression of this love. At least I hope we all love each other.

Most of the time when I am at either of my parents house, I feel like I'm just in the way. Like I'm a burden to them. It is extremely hard being the only Christian in your family. It makes loving them even harder because they don't always understand where I am coming from.

I want to love, I just don't know if I know how...... What I do know about love comes from God, He gave up His only Son so that I may have everlasting life! Jesus died for me and that is pretty romantic....I don't know of anyone else who would suffer and die the way He did for someone like me. Knowing that I would let Him down time after time and never be able to love Him the way He loves me. I am so thankful that He does love me, and you know what the best part is? He loves me for me! I don't have to try to be someone I'm not, I don't have to have perfect grades, the best job, the best clothes....I can just be me...the real me...and He LOVES me for that!

I was recently talking to a sister-in-Christ about how God sees us. He sees us as spotless, perfect, without blemish.....all because His Son died and took my place on that cross. Since I have repented of my sins and excepted Jesus as Lord and Saviour of my life, he sees me as clean, perfect and lovable. Wow, it is just mind blowing when I think of all the wrongs I have done, I wasn't as nice to her as I should have been, I said something mean to him, I was rude.....and the list can go on and on.......His love for me doesn't change, He will always love me!

Wow, so this blog got a little long and kind of jumped from thought to thought......I hope you were able to follow and grasp something out of this jumble of words if nothing else please know that God loves you and wants to have a relationship with you....all you have to do is ask, He is standing there with arms wide open just waiting for you to run into His arms.

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