Update on my life

Life has been crazy lately, my work schedule has been changing on a regular basis and I'm learning to just go with it.....I worked my first double shift (16hours!) a few weeks ago and that was totally crazy, I have added shifts here and there and lost them as well. I am really starting to enjoy my job, I think, It seems like every time I admit that I like my job something terrible at work happens and than the cycle starts over and I dread going to work! I am trying to gain a new attitude towards work and see every day as a new day and not let yesterdays troubles ruin my new day!

I am really enjoying being able to help out with the college ministry here and God is showing me so much through it all, for example...I need to let go of my plans, God's plans are not my plans, His are even better! (see Jeremiah 29:11) Sometimes its difficult to see this right away but I know that with everything that happens God is teaching me something new through the situation. A great example of this is Bible study, I have this picture perfect idea of what it looks like and how it will go...to put it simply, Bible study is going nothing how I think it should go. To me it's like a sinking ship and I don't know whether I should try to save it or just build a new ship. I have recently had an encouraging conversation with someone who knows a lot about Bible studies and ministry. He laughed when we told about what was going on and encouraged us that it was ok, that it was good that we were taking risks.

Sometimes I am just so focused on what I need to do to reach others, to bring others to God that I forget the most important part....letting GOD work! I am just a vessel for God to use and it is silly for me to try to reach people for God without God's help! I am thankful that God is so patient with me because I almost always have to learn things the hard, long, painful way.

I am very much looking forward to what God had for my future but for now I am going to try to slow down and enjoy what God has for me today, if we are always looking to the future, we are missing out on what He has for us today!