I was reflecting on my walk with God today and realized something, I don't always walk with Him. Actually most of the time I am either running ahead of Him or lagging behind. Sometimes I leap into something because I think it is what He has for me and I don't even think to pray and ask if this is right. I just run ahead and than I am frustrated because I feel lost because I tried to get ahead and go the way I though was right. Other times I lag behind, I know what He wants me to do and I don't want to do it due to fear, selfishness, pride, and the list could go on and on.
For the first time this summer I have really felt the peace of God, the peace that you know comes from Him because there is no way you could manufacture this peace by yourself. It is so amazing, there are no words to describe how good it is to know that you are walking side by side with the Creator of the universe! That He cares enough to take my hand and lead me through life. That if I fall, He is there to pick me up and set me on my feet again.
I know that God has led me to the place where I live and work and I am so excited to see how He will use it for His glory because right now that is all that I want. He has done so much for me and will continue to do many more amazing things in my life that I just want to do something for Him. I want to serve Him everyday. I know I can never "pay Him back" for all He has done for me but I desire more than ever to serve Him and use my life to give Him glory and praise.
"Now may the Lord of peace Himself give you peace at all times and in every way." 2 Thessalonians 3:16
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Valerie Young RN BSN
That's right! I am officially a Registered Nurse! I passed the NCLEX, no more studying endless hours and worrying about taking the test, it is all over and I can breathe once again! I have been training at my new job this past week and now have a 3 day weekend! Wednesday I went to lifest and saw some great bands and hung out with some great friends! Friday I had lunch with Liz and Alexa. We talked about starting a women's bible study which really excited me! I miss going to Bible study! Tomorrow I am going to lifest again and than seeing some old friends.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Waiting
Well I took the NCLEX today.... I had 75 questions which is the least amount that you can get, 265 is the most. I have no idea how I did, I pray that I passed.I will get my official results in one month but in a few days I will have my unofficial results....The wait is on,,,,,,,
Yesterday I went with my friend Maria to stay at my friend Leah's house. It was so good to see both of these women, they are so devoted to God, it makes them so beautiful! I am so blessed to have such great friends. Today after the test I got to have dinner with two more special lady's; Jacque and Heather. It was such a blessing to see all four women in 2 days!
Yesterday I went with my friend Maria to stay at my friend Leah's house. It was so good to see both of these women, they are so devoted to God, it makes them so beautiful! I am so blessed to have such great friends. Today after the test I got to have dinner with two more special lady's; Jacque and Heather. It was such a blessing to see all four women in 2 days!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Moving & Change once again!
I moved once again today but now it was to my apartment because I got a job as a RN!!!! I will have the apartment all to myself for a month and a half until my other 3 roommate arrive. I am excited to live with them but for now I will enjoy the alone time.....although I need people to interact with frequently!! So we will see how that goes! I start orientation tomorrow at the Rehab Center where I will be working. God has blessed me with finding a job that is less than 10 minutes away from my apartment! I am so excited to begin my nursing career, all I have left to do is pass the BIG test, which is the most important part! I take my test on Thursday, I have been studying hard and praying so I hope I pass on the first try!
As for moving......Let's just say my room is full of boxes and bags that need to be unpacked!!
As for moving......Let's just say my room is full of boxes and bags that need to be unpacked!!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Good news and Bad news
Well I guess I will start out with the bad news so I can end on a good note. Last friday at work I was informed that due to the slow economy and a lot of our shipments being held up in China that all college help would be cut from 40 hours to 32 hours, this means instead of working mon-fri, I only work tues-fri. Most of the college help was excited to have a day off but not me....I need to work because I need to pay back student loans!!!
The good news is I got a call today from a Rehab center asking me if I wanted to interview for a RN postion. I would most likely work the PM shift. I am so excited....I've applied to just under 100 jobs and finally something! I am so looking foward to tuesday so please pray for my interview that if this is God's will for me that I would get the job! See I told you the good news would be good!!
The good news is I got a call today from a Rehab center asking me if I wanted to interview for a RN postion. I would most likely work the PM shift. I am so excited....I've applied to just under 100 jobs and finally something! I am so looking foward to tuesday so please pray for my interview that if this is God's will for me that I would get the job! See I told you the good news would be good!!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Your Everything by Lifehouse
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you? Would you tell me how could it be any better than this? Cause You're all I want, You're all I need, You're everything, everthing
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this
Monday, June 7, 2010
Love
Love.....why is it that it is just so easy to love some people and others it seems nearly impossible? Love can be so complicated yet so simple. I don't know if I will ever fully grasp the concept of love. I know we are called by God to love everyone, even those who hurt us (we are called to love our enemies).
My concept of love has been messed up most of my life, I always thought it was something that you had to work towards, something that could be earned. But real love, true love can not be earned.
I grew up in a broken family, I have hardly any memories of my family being happy and lovey dovey like TV shows make family's appear. My parents were always fighting, and when they weren't fighting it was because they weren't talking. My parents divorced when I was in 4th grade, so my parents have been split up for most of my life. When parents get divorced, the children are forced to grow up fast because both parents are now working and you and your siblings have to take care of each other. My dad remarried when I was 16 and my mom has had a serious relationship with a guy since a I was 19.
My family is not the kind of family that says "I love you." In fact I don't remember the last time I said "I love you" to anyone in my family or they said it to me. I am sure that we all love each other, I guess we just don't have a normal expression of this love. At least I hope we all love each other.
Most of the time when I am at either of my parents house, I feel like I'm just in the way. Like I'm a burden to them. It is extremely hard being the only Christian in your family. It makes loving them even harder because they don't always understand where I am coming from.
I want to love, I just don't know if I know how...... What I do know about love comes from God, He gave up His only Son so that I may have everlasting life! Jesus died for me and that is pretty romantic....I don't know of anyone else who would suffer and die the way He did for someone like me. Knowing that I would let Him down time after time and never be able to love Him the way He loves me. I am so thankful that He does love me, and you know what the best part is? He loves me for me! I don't have to try to be someone I'm not, I don't have to have perfect grades, the best job, the best clothes....I can just be me...the real me...and He LOVES me for that!
I was recently talking to a sister-in-Christ about how God sees us. He sees us as spotless, perfect, without blemish.....all because His Son died and took my place on that cross. Since I have repented of my sins and excepted Jesus as Lord and Saviour of my life, he sees me as clean, perfect and lovable. Wow, it is just mind blowing when I think of all the wrongs I have done, I wasn't as nice to her as I should have been, I said something mean to him, I was rude.....and the list can go on and on.......His love for me doesn't change, He will always love me!
Wow, so this blog got a little long and kind of jumped from thought to thought......I hope you were able to follow and grasp something out of this jumble of words if nothing else please know that God loves you and wants to have a relationship with you....all you have to do is ask, He is standing there with arms wide open just waiting for you to run into His arms.
My concept of love has been messed up most of my life, I always thought it was something that you had to work towards, something that could be earned. But real love, true love can not be earned.
I grew up in a broken family, I have hardly any memories of my family being happy and lovey dovey like TV shows make family's appear. My parents were always fighting, and when they weren't fighting it was because they weren't talking. My parents divorced when I was in 4th grade, so my parents have been split up for most of my life. When parents get divorced, the children are forced to grow up fast because both parents are now working and you and your siblings have to take care of each other. My dad remarried when I was 16 and my mom has had a serious relationship with a guy since a I was 19.
My family is not the kind of family that says "I love you." In fact I don't remember the last time I said "I love you" to anyone in my family or they said it to me. I am sure that we all love each other, I guess we just don't have a normal expression of this love. At least I hope we all love each other.
Most of the time when I am at either of my parents house, I feel like I'm just in the way. Like I'm a burden to them. It is extremely hard being the only Christian in your family. It makes loving them even harder because they don't always understand where I am coming from.
I want to love, I just don't know if I know how...... What I do know about love comes from God, He gave up His only Son so that I may have everlasting life! Jesus died for me and that is pretty romantic....I don't know of anyone else who would suffer and die the way He did for someone like me. Knowing that I would let Him down time after time and never be able to love Him the way He loves me. I am so thankful that He does love me, and you know what the best part is? He loves me for me! I don't have to try to be someone I'm not, I don't have to have perfect grades, the best job, the best clothes....I can just be me...the real me...and He LOVES me for that!
I was recently talking to a sister-in-Christ about how God sees us. He sees us as spotless, perfect, without blemish.....all because His Son died and took my place on that cross. Since I have repented of my sins and excepted Jesus as Lord and Saviour of my life, he sees me as clean, perfect and lovable. Wow, it is just mind blowing when I think of all the wrongs I have done, I wasn't as nice to her as I should have been, I said something mean to him, I was rude.....and the list can go on and on.......His love for me doesn't change, He will always love me!
Wow, so this blog got a little long and kind of jumped from thought to thought......I hope you were able to follow and grasp something out of this jumble of words if nothing else please know that God loves you and wants to have a relationship with you....all you have to do is ask, He is standing there with arms wide open just waiting for you to run into His arms.
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