I'm Back!

Hello and sorry for my unexplained absence. So much has happened and life has really been crazy but I am back now and hope to be writing often but we will see what happens. I just want to catch you up on everything right away but I don't think you want to sit here for that long!! I have grown a lot in my relationship with the Lord over these past 4 or 5 months that I have been gone and there have been some life changes as well. The Lord has been so good through it all and I will be writing many posts to catch you up! I hope you are all enjoying this time of Thanksgiving! Talk to you soon!

Gearing up

It's about that time where some changes will once again occur. I am excited for these changes for the most part anyways. With change always comes anxiety. Thankfully while in college I memorized a verse that got me through a lot of my days.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Philippians 4:6-7

Yes that verse was easy to memorize because I had to read it just about every day! In a couple of weeks I will be moving to a new city, it is only 30 minutes from where I live now so I'm not moving that far. I will also be closer to my family and friends from back home. I am still a little nervous about how things will go when I move but trusting that the Lord will provide me with friendships, fellowship, and everything else I need.

I have been working less hours at work. I now have to part-time jobs instead of my full time job. This was a hard decision to make, while I did not like my full time job it meant a lot of hours and a lot of money to provide for my needs. Now I only work when I call and there are hours to pick up, risky I know! I prayed about this decision and really felt like this is what I was to do at this time. I hoping to use my extra time to minister to those around me, especially college students.

Last night at Bible Study we talked about if we really are relying on God to provide for us. For my entire life I have never had to worry about where my next meal will come from or if I will have a place to sleep. I never really had to rely on God in those areas of my life. I now need to trust God to provide me with enough hours at work to meet my needs. This is exciting, yet terrifying at the same time. Thankfully my God is greater than anything and I know He will provide for me, it just may not look how I think it should.

Thanks for reading my ramblings .... Until next time, Hope you have a wonderful day!

Update on my life

Life has been crazy lately, my work schedule has been changing on a regular basis and I'm learning to just go with it.....I worked my first double shift (16hours!) a few weeks ago and that was totally crazy, I have added shifts here and there and lost them as well. I am really starting to enjoy my job, I think, It seems like every time I admit that I like my job something terrible at work happens and than the cycle starts over and I dread going to work! I am trying to gain a new attitude towards work and see every day as a new day and not let yesterdays troubles ruin my new day!

I am really enjoying being able to help out with the college ministry here and God is showing me so much through it all, for example...I need to let go of my plans, God's plans are not my plans, His are even better! (see Jeremiah 29:11) Sometimes its difficult to see this right away but I know that with everything that happens God is teaching me something new through the situation. A great example of this is Bible study, I have this picture perfect idea of what it looks like and how it will go...to put it simply, Bible study is going nothing how I think it should go. To me it's like a sinking ship and I don't know whether I should try to save it or just build a new ship. I have recently had an encouraging conversation with someone who knows a lot about Bible studies and ministry. He laughed when we told about what was going on and encouraged us that it was ok, that it was good that we were taking risks.

Sometimes I am just so focused on what I need to do to reach others, to bring others to God that I forget the most important part....letting GOD work! I am just a vessel for God to use and it is silly for me to try to reach people for God without God's help! I am thankful that God is so patient with me because I almost always have to learn things the hard, long, painful way.

I am very much looking forward to what God had for my future but for now I am going to try to slow down and enjoy what God has for me today, if we are always looking to the future, we are missing out on what He has for us today!

Moving & Change once again!

I moved once again today but now it was to my apartment because I got a job as a RN!!!! I will have the apartment all to myself for a month and a half until my other 3 roommate arrive. I am excited to live with them but for now I will enjoy the alone time.....although I need people to interact with frequently!! So we will see how that goes! I start orientation tomorrow at the Rehab Center where I will be working. God has blessed me with finding a job that is less than 10 minutes away from my apartment! I am so excited to begin my nursing career, all I have left to do is pass the BIG test, which is the most important part! I take my test on Thursday, I have been studying hard and praying so I hope I pass on the first try!

As for moving......Let's just say my room is full of boxes and bags that need to be unpacked!!